chat life

Hey there life its been a long time since we’ve chatted,
I’m no longer into gi joes, voltron, and inspector gadget,
Instead now I have sexual relations and half my body is beer battered,
Tattered and shaken by lives loved and scattered,
I have been officially altered,
To a point of return but unwilling to look back,
A mistake to other eyes of judgment that couldn’t have been taken back,
A look, a glare that always bites back,
Cause the mirror is relentless on trying to eye back,
Do you see what I see,
A man but not yet grown,
A foundation but not yet a home,
But the roof keeps the rain from damaging the structure homes,
In too deep,
Into the quicksand we creep,
The appearance of being shallow puddles but still waters run deep,
Illusions protruding my subconscious mind,
A schizophrenic with life lines running courses through life’s time,
Paranoia dispersed like fine wine,
You cant hold me down, I wont let it,
You can raise the stakes, but this life I wont bet it,
The picture is bigger than the frame but you still don’t get it,
The lamb is wild within the lair of the wolf but its wool it wont shed it,
This knife is going dull for piercing layers of scars that wont bleed out,
Eyes going cross eyed for trying to convert messages that resist to read out,
Cry out,
Lonely souls holding their breath till their blue in the face for a shout out,
I'm a contraption of compassion but my short hands wont hold out,
Stuck in a maze that has no ending,
Concepts of prophets heard but not comprehending,
Words unraveled and distributed for lending,
Offending and defending but all feats are pending,
I'm transcending
Ascending into a life too real to be pretending,
You can play house while I pay the person who’s renting,
Fake what you like but ill pretend that I'm contempt,
Redeem a means to continue to identify what this really means,
Do I have it held together or am I tearing at the seems,
I guess you can say it depends on the scene,
And obstacles are viruses and life is the vaccine,
You live and you learn or do you learn to live,
Live life to give love or love life to give,
Its similar in a sense,
And senseless as it is common,
But don’t give sixpence for your 6th sense which is common sense uncommon,
Life I'm content with the person I am within,
I'm might not be able to fly like super heroes but I'm addictive like heroine,
No question, this life is a blessing,
Stressing for a cause, cause I strain for resolution,
Life spins revolutions for continuous inner revolution,
To determine the accuracy of personal intuition,
So once again do you see what I see,
What do you expect of me,
Have you ever wondered since I yearn to know the meaning of you do you ask what is the meaning of me,
So lets just leave it like that,
Why must I chase this cat,
Hold on dear life until our next chat.